I never thought I would be writing anything like this.
I have struggled to figure out what to say about the end of mine and Kevin’s (Helo) relationship. As time has gone by it has only become more and more clear to me how unhealthy the relationship was. I’m not sure when I’ll be able to post the painful (and frequent) memories I have of the constant undermining of my feelings and needs… but I will at some point.
I am trying to document things in my online blog as well as my private, written journal. I have a feeling that Kevin is going to escalate. I’m not sure how that will happen but I’ve been told it’s important to keep records.
I bought a security camera. Kevin in the past has seriously considered buying a gun. Mercury and I spent the weekend in Santa Cruz with Maya and Sharon, because we are scared. Mercury and I called our parents and told them. I called Kevin’s best friend and told him that I am scared. Kevin bcc’d the email to Hannah, and when she replied to say that she was not supporting him, he told her he had engaged a team of lawyers (???). I suspect he will continue to escalate. The email, copied below, came as a forward of the proof that Kevin had bought the domain name. Camille’s response is also copied (names have been changed).
Hi Athena,I think I’m mostly over our relationship, which is for the better given our situation. I apologize for my funny-but-not-overly-respectful comment on your Facebook post the other day. I do think on the scale of not-so-respectful things that have happened since early November, mine is fairly low, so hopefully you can appreciate the funny part instead of the not-so-respectful aspect. And, in any case, I hope you can appreciate Jasper’s incredibly appropriate first kitty frown, which of course I had nothing to do with, other than appreciate after the fact.And I sincerely hope you’re doing well too, despite the difficult circumstances including Mercury’s “coming out” so thoroughly and nakedly as a sexual predator just after the official end of our relationship. I do wish I could have handled the whole situation better rather than get triggered by my own abandonment issues, which are probably left over baggage from my childhood, although I’ll never know for sure. I’ve been working on this stuff since then, and my therapist has been super helpful btw, thank you (and Rafael) again for referring her to me.If nothing else, I wish I could have helped you avoid a truly toxic person – a self-bragging rapist, no less. Some naive part of me still wishes I could have saved our relationship as well, but adult Kevin fully realizes that by the time I was aware of your falling in love with Mercury in late December, it was too late to save our relationship – and it may have even been too late even before then, we had been struggling for quite a while and maybe we just weren’t meant to be together. In any case, as I get some time and space from this whole situation, I very much appreciate the amazing love we did share together, and I’m able to let go of the other aspects. And I hope you can as well.Mercury-wise, I am working on a “Rapist de la Playa” themed website to keep everyone up to date on his many sexual exploits. Mercury bragged not just about his many sexual exploits with drugged up women on the playa (including two drug-enabled rapes in one night), but also diligently highlighted the fact that the partners of these drugged up women weren’t there and never knew about it, and the fact that these women would never sleep with him under any other circumstances. He told me his wild stories of playa rape on at least three separate occasions. I’m embarrassed that I did not fully recognize them for what they were, literally rape, even though I was thoroughly disgusted by them – as we discussed at the various times, and numerous times afterwards.Outside the tiny circle of the kitty pack – there are plenty of other people with horrible experiences with Mercury, and I welcome any additions you may have, now or in the future. As one of his sexual prey, specifically as his non-consensual cuck bottom, I’m looking forward to preventing his access to other sexual prey, and do hope you will join me in this effort.Also, I’m CC’ing Camille because I’m pretty sure she can help us better articulate Mercury’s rape habit on the playa (and probably elsewhere), and T** because he’s been so helpful during our difficult period.Sincerely,Kevin
Kevin,The contents of this email and your planned libel on Mercury are unacceptable, and the type of behavior that is indicative of an abusive personality. To this point I have attempted to stay as uninvolved in the end of your relationship with Athena as possible, and I have given you the benefit of the doubt. But now you have brought my name into it, and I refuse to be made complicit in this illegal, and threatening, action.I will not hesitate to encourage Mercury and Athena to seek legal aid in fighting this libel, nor with seeking a restraining order should we hear anything further from you on this or related topics. I have never had reason to suspect Mercury is a sexual predator, and everything I’ve witnessed over the past few months has demonstrated that you are the dangerous element here.I want you to take this email to your therapist and read the entire contents, my reply and your original text. Reading it aloud you may begin to understand how unhinged you sound. If this behavior is indeed the outcome of childhood trauma, you should work to understand that in your triggered state you do not act rationally, and in that state need to be more circumspect with your words and actions. It is not the responsibility of me, Athena, Mercury, or anyone else to tiptoe around your triggers – you are responsible for your actions.Do not contact me again. I have blocked you on FetLife and Facebook, and will be doing so on my email as soon as I hit send. Do not come to my house. I will not let you in, nor will any of my housemates. Do not call or text me, there is nothing more you could say that would win me to your “side”. It is juvenile to have sorted us into sides.You should hand over control of this domain to Mercury immediately.-Camille